Feeling Blue!!!

Hey,

I am feeling terribly blue...!! How am i going to start.... tell me!! When i close my eyes the only think that appears in my mind and dreams were just signs of pain and anger and tears. I cry all night feeling blue. I talk to myself went i have no want to share my problems with. I can't seek anyone accept me. I am feeling depress. I am having feeling of running away. i can't sleep. i am feeling restless. DAD and MUM!!! i can't fulfill what you want me to be. I can't be like my cousins who are in JC or in UNI...I ma just a ordinary gal who strives for her best. You just got to accept me for who i am rather than comparing me with my cousins or people from outside. I know i can't stand at their shadows they are way more better than me. They score great results. Please understand i am tulasi ur daughter. I am not anyother child. I can only do my very best. Please understand that i have put in my very best. I have strive very hard and I have pushed myself to the extreme. If the outcome is not what u want than u got to accept what has come. Thats how u accept me rite. I can't sit with people telling me i am useless, I can't be someone in life, i am stupid, I am hopeless, Please don't tell all this... i have gone thru alot of pain with teachers disgracing me infront of the entire school. I have teacher who just throw me to the bottom of everytink and fires my Teacher becox the outcome is bad. I still repect and did my very best. I know i am bad in my Tamil it doesnt mean my entire life is over. Stop gng around gossiping about me.. i hurts alot. I am hearing this from my own teacher. Wats wrng with u. is this all becos u want a gold value added. Please la. !!! i have enought of all this...please understand. IF ONLY I HAVE THE POWER...i wan to change the preception of other peoples thoughts...god hear me ..please...Hear my pain and tell me or show me the path...i am confuse...i am helpless now...:-(((